Well the last week or so I've been having a bit of anxiety in regards to this pregnancy. I felt different but then a day so later I started to feel fine about it. Regardless I contacted my midwife and asked her if I could come in for a heart beat check.
She couldn't find the heart beat.
I am just at a loss for words. I was 14 weeks last Friday but she said the baby measured about 12 weeks on the ultra sound. I never dreamed I would be going through something like this--let alone twice in less than 6 months.
I was finally feeling confident, like this was really going to happen. Deep in my heart I really felt like we were going to have another child in August. I couldn't have been happier.
Now I just don't know what to do. Part of me feels like giving up and not trying again. Just being happy with Rachel. That part is overshadowing any feeling I have toward being pregnant again. I just don't know...
Thanks for all your well wishes. I hoped I wouldn't have to do this again.