27 March 2008

Headed out of town

Well my dear readers, my family and I are headed out of town tomorrow. We are going to Arizona to see some family and friends. We are not bringing our laptop and I am going to really try not to check my email for four days. :) It's going to be a busy but fun weekend. Tomorrow a friend of ours is getting married that we haven't seen for years. Then Saturday morning we are going to the Phoenix Zoo and then that afternoon my wonderful sister-in-law is hosting an Usborne book party. We will be coming home on Monday so you all have a wonderful weekend!

25 March 2008

American Idol

Okay so for the last few weeks I've just been commenting on Cheryl's blog every Wednesday morning when she does her American Idol summary. Tonight I just decided to post on my on blog from now on! Aren't you thrilled?? Feel free to agree or disagree. Okay, so here we go:

Rameile: I thought it was kind of weird and a little pitchy. Definitely not as good as Carrie Underwood on Season 4. She takes the cake on that song.

Jason: I didn't know the song, but I really liked the folkiness of it.

Syesha: Tonight was the first time I really liked her. I thought she finally showed some personality and sang it really well.

Chikesi: Was kinda boring tonight, but he sang the song well. He's getting lower and lower on my list each week. I agree with Simon that the song was way too old for him.

Brooke: I really liked her this week with the piano again. She is consistent each week and this was another classic strong performance.

Michael: is back and I loved it! Spencer commented that he has a good voice for Queen. There's only a few people that can pull of Freddie Mercury. He was quite the powerhouse tonight!

Carly: I love that song and thought she did a decent job. She was a little screamy and intense though so that was the downside.

David A.: I thought tonight was kind of weird and poppy...I didn't know the song but still I thought sang it clear and stong and you could tell he was enjoying himself and confident. Simon's comment about the theme park was hilarious and I could really see why he said that when they did the playback at the end of the show.

Kristy Lee: For the first time I really enjoyed Kristy. Personally she really blew me away tonight. I thought that she sang it with so much feeling and confidence. That song has such power and feeling and she harnessed it.

David C.--Another awesome performance. David is by far my favorite contestant this year. I was really glad he chose to sing a softer song and it really paid off. I seriously loved that arrangement! I totally buy into his "image" and love his voice!

This week was way better than last week!
I think I have been blessed with days like this so that I can be strengthened and prepared for days to come. I have looked back at that day many times over the last couple weeks. These last few weeks have been rough--I'm talking like sad, crying at least every other day kind of rough. I don't stay sad and can usually come out of these feelings, but it's hard when you cry every time you think about or see a pregnant women. A week ago Sunday I spent the better part of two hours sobbing. It's been a blessing being in Primary for the last two hours every Sunday only surrounded by 5 three year olds. I wish I was stronger.

This morning after going on a walk with my friend Lacey, I jumped into the shower like I do every day. Showering has been one time in my day that I have truly enjoyed lately. Getting in that warm water and letting is rush over my face and body helps me to relax so much. It's like the water is a magic calming elixir. I know that if I put a movie on for Rachel she's safe and I can take as long as I want in there. Today I sat down in the bathtub and let the water fall all over me while I just laid there thinking. I just wanted to stay there all day long and not have to face the day today.

I never dreamed losing something I never even had could cause so much pain, so much heart ache.

I'm sorry to be such a downer today but I'd be a liar if I didn't represent my life the way it is. I feel like you all have a one sided view of me because I don't like to put up sad posts but this is life. I am grateful for my testimony that this is just a small part of life. It helps me to get out of the shower and do what I need to do. I know it will just take time to work through these feelings and that's what I need.

23 March 2008

What did you sing today?

We were a little late to church today (I can't remember the last time we were late) but
when we sat down I noticed the opening song was Christ the Lord is Risen Today. Personally I love this song so I was pretty bummed that we missed singing it. Our Sacrament hymn was O Savior, Thou Who Wearest a Crown and then we closed with He is Risen. The opening and closing songs seem to epitomize Easter worship in at least the wards I have been in most of my life.

Did you sing these songs too?

Looking in the Hymnal there really are only 4 "Easter" songs (We sang three and the other one is kind of obscure) then it jumps right into Christmas. Now I love Christmas too, but the Resurrection is the greatest moment in history. "He is not here: for he is risen" is probably the greatest phrase ever spoken. We should definitely have more songs to commemorate this event. I realize that our Sacrament Hymns talk about the Savior and his ultimate sacrifice but many of those are focused on his death and/or Atonement. I love Easter and thinking about the Resurrection and what a glorious event it was. I wish that we could celebrate the Easter season more like we do the Christmas season--by singing Easter-themed songs leading up to Easter Sunday.

Happy Easter!

He is risen!

17 March 2008

15 March 2008

Not so quick on my feet...

I don't like being put on the spot. I do not think quickly on my feet and because of that make a fool of myself often. I remember too many times someone saying something to me and me just nodding or worse doing nothing and then the conversation is over. A minute or so later I usually think of something to say but the moment would pass. I would spend the rest of that day reliving the conversation and kicking myself that I couldn't think of something good to say.

Unfortunately it happened again last night. We went to an improv comedy club in San Diego--the kind where they brown bag the comedians if they say anything inappropriate--with some friends. If you have never seen this kind of comedy show they take suggestions and the ideas for their skits from the audience--think Who's Line Is It Anyway? Well the "Ref" asked for a show of hands who was here with their family. Spencer and I raised our hands since we are part of our family. Since we were in the second row they called on us to answer some questions. The "Ref" asked me to describe Spencer in a couple words. All I could think of was "hilarious" and "energetic." What?? She looked like she could use a couple more words but my mind was completely blank. Spencer chose patient, kind, dependable and enduring. Pretty good on his feet, that guy. Then I had to describe Rachel and my brother Jesse. I failed miserably with them as well. What they did then was take the words we gave them and then they acted out a scene trying to portray us as best as they could. I actually got to go on stage with them (I'll post pictures later) and buzz them if they got it wrong and ding them if they got it right. It was pretty fun but all I could think of was going "doh!" and hitting my forehead with my palm. (For what it's worth we did get two free tickets to go back so that was pretty cool.)

All day long I've been replaying that scenario in my head. Of course I can think of plenty of things now to describe Spencer: dependable, loyal, responsible, friendly, understanding, a good listener, playful, talkative and on and on but I couldn't for the life of me think of those on the spot.

I know I know my family, but it's times like this when I question myself and it drives me nuts.

12 March 2008

Sunbeams truly are a ray of sunshine

On Sunday one of my Sunbeams gave me a card. I asked her if I could open it in class, but I had strict instructions to open it when I got home. Here is a picture of the note:

and here is what it said since it's a little hard to read:
Dear Sister J.,
I love you...whole bunches! Thanks for being nice and sweet. I love sunbeams. My favorite food is tacos, and oranges.

I totally cracked up on the favorite food part. You can tell her mom wrote it for her, but it was Avery's words all the way.

I have 5 kids in my class and two are twins--a boy and a girl. Their mom came up to me last night at a church activity and told me how much her kids love class. It seriously made my day! I am loving teaching these kids and it's so good to hear that they love me back! She said all week they can't wait to go to class. They want to tell me all kinds of jokes and stories and show me things. They even want Rachel and I to come over to play.

I can't tell you how much joy these little 3-4 year olds bring in to my life every week. They truly are a ray of sunshine.


Whoever invented the RSS feed is a genius. I heart Google Reader. I especially love that I can subscribe to comment feed too so that I don't have to continually check posts that I've commented to see if there is anything else I want to say or if anyone says something to me. Seriously though RSS feed has to be one of the best inventions ever....

In other great news I found out last night that two of my friends are pregnant! These women have been trying for 3+ years to get pregnant and one even had to do in-vitro. I couldn't be more thrilled for them!! They truly are miracles! Congrats!

11 March 2008

Explaining Easter to a 3 year old

So last night after Family Home Evening we were just hanging around singing Primary songs. Rachel loves to sing. I decided it might be a good idea to give her a heads up about Easter and what it's about. Here's our conversation:

Me: Rachel tell me what you know about Jesus.
Rachel (thinking): Hmmm, he gave me a train set.
Me: Well Santa gave you that train set on Christmas. You know Jesus loved us very much. He loved us so much he died for us. And then...
Rachel: And then he turned into a handsome prince?
Spencer: Well he's the Prince of this world.
Me (laughing): No Rachel, he didn't turn into a handsome prince.
Rachel: The Beast died and turned into a handsome prince.
Me: Jesus died and then he was resurrected. Can you say resurrected?
Rachel: (something that resembled resurrected)
Me: Resurrected means he came back to life.
Rachel: We need to get some Life (cereal) at the store, Mom!

Sigh. I guess Easter is a little beyond this three year old's comprehension...

06 March 2008

Jane Austen Book Club Surprise!

It's done! I actually finished it on Saturday and I am so thrilled! I made a Regency period dress.

I have had this idea for quite a while and a couple weeks ago decided to just go for it. After watching the Jane Austen movies recently and reading Emma this month I thought it would be fun to make a period dress. I found a pattern on line and then bought what I thought looked like country day gown fabric. It didn't turn out as Regency-looking as I hoped, but I'm glad I made it.

It was more difficult than I anticipated, but I think it turned out okay...Here are some closeups of the back and the bottom "petticoat" that I sewed on to the lining.

Here's a picture of me in it so you can kind of get the full effect of it.

04 March 2008

Wild Animal Park

A couple weekends ago we went to the Wild Animal Park with my Dad and his wife. Rachel and I hadn't been there for at least a year and it had been much longer for the others. My Dad and Karen bought passes so they had free ones for Spencer and I and then we just bought a pass for Rachel since it's only $6 bucks more than the regular price. They changed the tram ride so unless you have a pass it's $10 bucks!

To counter that they made more walking trails so you can see the animals. We didn't take any pictures but we saw the lions, the giraffes and the elephants. The male lion was roaring like he was angry. It was crazy to hear roaring like that in real life. The giraffes came up pretty close so Rachel was really excited about that. She loves giraffes for some reason.

Then we walked around some more and eventually made it back to the petting zoo and the duck pond. Rachel had tons of fun petting the deer. She also was feeding the ducks and loving it! It's so great that we have fun places to go for Rachel and to spend time with family!

Oh and she dressed herself that day, can you tell? She has been expressing quite the independence when it comes to dressing herself. The shoes really make the outfit. I just tell myself she's a trendsetter! :)

03 March 2008

Blog Post of Randomness

I just found out that I left a load of laundry in the washing machine (in the laundry room) for quite a few days. I can't even remember putting that load in the washer. It's a good thing that Spencer went in to the laundry room to buy a soda tonight. Otherwise a couple more days and those clothes might have been goners!
Rachel has been saying some really funny things lately. When I bought her the Pigeon books a couple weeks ago I told Rachel I would buy the last one for her for her birthday. So she thinks her birthday is coming really soon. Last week we were talking about birthdays and I told her that my birthday is first, then Daddy's and then hers. She said, "It's okay I have your birthday?" I told her "No, I don't think so," laughing. So she said, "Ok I just want to share your birthday."
Have you checked out Google Maps lately? We needed to take our car to get some work done on it. The mechanic that we went to sold his business to someone else and they raised their prices so we needed another one. I typed in auto shops into the Better Business Bureau and found one close enough. Type in 322 N El Camino Real, Encinitas, CA 92024 into Google Maps and click on the picture. You can see the whole neighborood around the business! If you zoom out you can see everything outlined in blue where Google has taken pictures of so much area. So cool.
I despise Voldemort. I try to avoid it at all costs. On Saturday I had to buy a few final things for my special Jane Austen book club project (which is done by the way) and thought I could get a good deal there. I was reminded why I never go there: The employees there are such a joke. I bought something that I had a little question about and when I asked the employee for advice she just said something in such a snotty voice like I was annoying her or I was just plain stupid. I felt like saying, "Pardon me, but you work here lady."
Lastly I must be totally losing my mind because on Saturday after my shower I noticed my hair didn't quite seem clean. I combed it and dried it, but it didn't have that "just shampooed" feeling. I have a routine that I follow in the shower every day but apparently I forgot the most important step! I realized I skipped washing my hair. Gross! I had to do the lean-over-the-bath tub-hair-wash after that.
Well there you go. My random things post....Carry on.

02 March 2008

What a great Sunday

This morning I woke up before my alarm. This is rare--not that I actually use an alarm each day--because lately it's been very hard for me to get out of bed each morning. I'm just so tired. Usually I'll wake up around 6:45ish when Rachel comes in but then roll over and go back to sleep until 7:30ish. This morning I was ready to go at 6:15, and I stayed up late last night too. It was the sign of a good day to come.

We got to church and I kept wondering why only one person was sitting on the stand ready to give their talk. When I saw that person stand up and lead the music I remembered--again, I did fast--that it was Fast Sunday. I didn't really feel impressed to give my testimony then, but about halfway through the meeting that changed. My thoughts were preoccupied by other things not church related until one brother stood up to bear his testimony. Something he said really lit a fire in me and I felt the Spirit so strongly. I knew I would have to bear my testimony before the meeting was over.

I stalled through the next person but couldn't wait any longer. I bore what was in my heart about the love the Savior has for each of us. I have realized through my recent experiences and through those of my family and friends that life sometimes just sucks. It doesn't go as we planned and many times we are thrown a curve ball. But I've also realized it's how we deal with those experiences that makes us who we are. I know that the Savior and my Heavenly Father know who I am. I know that they listen to my prayers. I have had them answered. I know that Jesus Christ is my Savior and that he loves me deeply. I also know that sometimes the pain of trials and life doesn't go away, but through the power of the Atonement the Savior can help us through our trials. He can hold our hand or our arm if we are having trouble standing up and walk with us.

Through this last miscarriage I have needed that support. I have needed more hugs from Spencer and more comfort. I have been comforted by the fact that Jesus Christ is there and will always support us if we ask. I am so grateful for this knowledge.

The other thing that made today so great was my Sunbeam class.

I finally realize why people have always told me that teaching the Sunbeams was such a great calling for them. Last year I didn't feel that way. To say the least my class was challenging. I loved those kids, but it wore me out every Sunday. This year my kids are so different. They have different personalities and like different things.

Today the lesson was on "I'm Thankful For Water." First of all the lessons are so great in the Nursery/Sunbeam manual. Next week I think we are doing "I'm Thankful for Trees and Flowers." I had so much fun with the kids today. We played a little charades game and some of the kids made up their own rules but it worked! They had fun. Then we talked a little about water and how important it is to be baptized. Then we did a little craft of gluing rain drops on a paper with pictures of things we do with water. One of my boys actually said, "Can you bring the raindrops and the glue next week? It was really fun!" I love it when you can really see that the children are absorbing what you are teaching. It is really true that we should be like a "little child, the same is greatest in the kingdom of heaven ."