Did anyone watch Idol Gives Back on Wednesday night? I told Spencer I would have it on in the background while I did stuff because I didn't want to watch it for two hours. Instead I watched it for two hours. :) I actually really enjoy the performances and it's interesting to watch the stories they show us. Plus I've been knitting a lot so it's nice to have something to watch while I knit. It is unimaginable how some people in the world--and even in our own country--live. It makes me feel so blessed to have a clean apartment, food and medicine when I need it.
I've been thinking a lot about what was shown on the episode. People living in dire circumstances. Disease rampant. Death and sickness a common thread among most of them. There was one woman who had lost 3-yes, three-children to HIV/AIDS in Africa. I cannot imagine the pain that she has gone through. Not only to be so personally affected by the disease but now she sees the damage and the heartache that it has inflicted on others that she knows and loves. This made me think a lot about what I have been going through.
My experiences are not anywhere near as dramatic as this woman's. I have however experienced pain and heartache. I know that putting things into perspective can help people realize that their experiences are not as bad as others. I understand that. But I also know that if I don't deal with the things I have been through I will not fully heal.
This brings me to my conundrum: So how do I reconcile the fact that I have to grieve to fully heal without ignoring the perspective that other's heartaches gives me?