Yes I'm pregnant again. Can you believe it?
Most days I can't.
I still look at myself and that little baby bump and think I'm just getting fat. (Until my last appointment and my midwife said my uterus was at my belly button. I guess there really is a baby in there. Who knew? Oh I'll be 18 weeks tomorrow, due the end of May)
Ironically I found out a week or so before this post. Even thought I knew I was pregnant at the time I wrote it, the post was still very important to me because I still have to have hope. Getting pregnant is not my challenge anymore, staying pregnant is. I still have hope that we will add to our family. Posting this is of itself a leap of faith since I lost my previous two pregnancies two weeks after announcing it to blog land. I'm pregnant today though and my mantra this time around has been "Pregnant until proven otherwise."
So since it's been so long since I've made it this far into a pregnancy I wanted to put down some things that I've learned this time around.
1. Throwing up scrambled eggs and popcorn (not necessarily together) has to be one of the nastiest things there is.
2. I could never be bulimic. I hate throwing up non-digested food. It just plain hurts.
3. Nothing tastes better coming back up despite what some people have claimed.
4. Feeling the baby kick can bring immeasurable joy--especially if it's been a few hours since you last felt it.
5. Even if you are going to the doctor every two weeks to have ultra sounds it's still too long to wait.
6. I will never get tired of seeing the ultra sound picture of our baby on the fridge every day. That in itself gives me hope.
7. Sometimes you do crazy things like kiss your fingers and touch those ultra sound pictures just because you are so grateful for what you are given.
8. The first 8 or 9 weeks go by really fast, but 9 through 15 take for.ever.
9. Prayers can bring about miracles
10. Morning sickness doesn't end when you get into the second trimester
and lastly 11. No matter what Billy Madison says, peeing your pants (while throwing up, sneezing, coughing--you fill in the blank) is never cool.
One thing I haven't learned yet though is with just barely half of the pregnancy behind me, how I can love this little person so much already.
Thank you so much for your prayers and support when I've needed them. My "real life" friends and my "internet" friends have both been immeasurable supports and I'm truly grateful for you all.