28 June 2011

Isn't Summer Supposed to Be Relaxing?

I had plans to get on here and blog a little this afternoon but then that never happened. I swear I have zero time to do anything now that summer has started. Am I the only one?

We had our ward pool day today at our apartment complex pool and after a couple hours I left to take Mr. Smiley home for a nap. I left Big Sister there with some friends since she wasn't quite ready to come home. Mr. Smiley crashed and I figured I would have some time to do some things I've been neglecting before she got home. So I showered and sat down at the computer with the attempt to write a few things about what's been going on the last few weeks, but I got sidetracked and then Big Sister came home and then it was all over.

So here we go...our sweet peas ran their course and we had to pull them out of our garden last week. To fill the space we bought a couple little cantaloupe plants and planted them in its place on Friday morning. Yesterday I went up there to water (Spencer went the time before) and something had eaten all the leaves off! I'm so bummed. I don't know if they'll last through the week--if they can pull through--but if they do we will have to get some kind of protection. It makes me sad that they got eaten.

With Big Sister home I feel like I can't accomplish anything. I used to have a good two hour window while Mr. Smiley was napping where I could just relax and knit or read or clean if I felt so inclined, but now I have nothing! I'm barely finding time to read my scriptures and sometimes I'm in bed at night realizing I haven't for the day. She is not one to willingly play by herself, so she's always begging me to play with her. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. I'm a big fan of encouraging self-play but even then I can't get anything done.

So BS doesn't pester me constantly about watching TV, playing on the computer, or playing on my iPod, a couple days ago I instituted a one hour of screen time a day rule....the one exception is I have the discretion to add or subtract time. It has been wonderful! Except she will now ask at 8 o'clock in the morning so I've had to say no TV before 9 or 10 to give her a chance to do something else before planting her butt on the couch for an hour. I love that there is no constant begging and that I don't have to be the TV police. It's up to her when she gets to watch (if it's after 9 or 10) and when it's done, it's done.

I'll be 12 weeks tomorrow! I was really close to throwing up today. The closest I've come this pregnancy. I don't know what it is....I feel a little queasy for a little bit each day, but nothing even close to how crappy I felt pregnant with Mr. S or even BS. He put me through the wringer. I still feel like this is a good one, but even if it's not, I'm throwing myself emotionally in the whole way. I'm so in love with this little person already. I haven't been quite as tired during the day with this one either, but by 8:30 I'm ready to pass out. I've fallen asleep on the couch almost every night for the past week before 9 because I'm so exhausted. If you missed my Facebook post last week here is what our little person looks like. He was super wiggly during the u/s and you can see his arms and a little hand even in this shot. His head is kind of alien shaped but we'll take it! :)

Since I haven't had much quiet "me" time the last week and a half I haven't been doing much knitting or crocheting. I made a bag a couple weeks back that I use for the beach and pool toys and that was fun.

Now I'm making this: Lace Bolero. I started it a few days ago but last night I screwed up so I had to take about half of what I had done out. I'm not really motivated much to work on it, but I will. I think it will come out cute and it's for me! I rarely make things for me, so that's another reason to really find some time...if I can stay awake at night after the kids go to bed.

Lastly I'm so excited! T-Bone has tons of vacation time. He's been taking a day here and a day there, but since he has the time off I figured it was time to take a real family vacation this summer and actually use that time. So a couple weeks ago I had the idea to go to the mountains and a lake or something like that and camp or stay in a hotel. My ideas were pretty firm as you can see. I was bouncing off some ideas to my mom about maybe Lake Arrowhead and she mentioned a great little place just down the mountain--Crestline and Lake Gregory. So I looked into it last week and it looked just darling. Little cabins right around the corner from the lake and a fun little town and I knew that I wanted to go there. So finally after thinking about it for a while and reading Susan's post today I booked it! I'm excited to have our first family vacation where we are not going somewhere to visit family! Not that I have any problems visiting family--it sure makes vacationing cheaper!--but I want it to be just the 4 of us. BS is thrilled. I showed her the little cabin that I booked and she wants to go tomorrow. I think it's going to be a long month for her to wait...and I hope it lives up to our expectations.

So that's a little about what's been happening so far this summer. Here's to a great rest of it!

08 June 2011

How To Eat A Strawberry

 Take a bite to test it....

 Take another bite and let the juices run down your arm....

Inspect it to see how much is left.... 

Smile for the camera....

 And shove the rest in your mouth!

03 June 2011

So Happy!

At least I'm trying to hold on to the happiness. It's really hard to balance the pure joy at seeing and hearing your growing baby's heartbeat and wondering if it will be the last time I hear or see it. I really envy those who get pregnant and blissfully go through the next nine months without a care in the world. They just get to happily anticipate the beautiful gift that they have been blessed with. It truly is a gift.

BUT I did go to the doctor again yesterday and felt pure joy. My doctor got the ultrasound machine and at first all she said was "There's the egg sack" and my heart dropped. I didn't know if that was a good sign that the egg sack was still there. But then she moved it a little the the left and there was a gorgeous picture of the life inside of me--with a strong beating heart. They got a new ultrasound machine that converts into sound and even though I'm barely over 8 weeks I could hear that beautiful sound! Just thinking about it again brings tears to my eyes. I'm so so grateful for that.

Even though I know I'm not out of the clear--two of my miscarriages were after seeing the heartbeat a couple times--just knowing that everything is good today is good enough for me. Deep in my heart I feel like this one is going to make it, but I don't know if that is just the hope that I have that it will, or if my instincts are correct. I guess I won't know for a few more months.

As for today I'm pregnant until I'm not and that makes me happy.